February 8th, 2013
Well I am glad to be getting back into the groove of things. In case anyone was wondering, I had some challenges with my work place and they were unable to support me in my internship. I had a very disappointing few months, but I think I am over it. I cant help but feel they won something over me due to their place of power, but hey I am not broken. I have learned people will try to keep you down along the way, especially if you let them. I am just glad I am able to stay in school and hopefully transition into a new position soon. I applied for two mental health positions so wish me luck.
I continue to be interested in blogging and actually wanted to create a new one. I also feel that I would like some privacy and wonder if thats normal. The idea of someone reading my journal (if i had one) seems a little invasive. My question is -if the more comfortable we get at this, would we eventually feel confident enough to share with the world? Professionally, I would imagine clients would find me, so I would not be able to have an open blog. Under a pseudo name will probably be how I handle that.
After reading some of our readings this week, I completed some free writing exercises and realized I still enjoy writing, as long as the topic interest me. I realized also that I keep alot of my thoughts private- I have this saying I use "For being a social worker, I am not very social". I think this is only a part of me that shuts down after work. I think it is part of my balance to have this quietness and silence. Another part of me never stops being a social worker because I have found myself in public providing resources that I am familiar with in the community.
I am so glad you're still with us, Nikki. We dream of Hawtmen! For real though, you're precious and we love you!
ReplyDeleteAs far as internet discomfort, I have to comment on it. I feel like the days of using an online alias or handle are over and part of the reason I actually enjoy blogging is that I get to have conversations with people that I might not be able to have otherwise.
By creating online content, no one can pretend to be me because I have already said my piece. For me it is still tricky though because I have my MSW blog, a blog I do for an online version of a newspaper and a blog I sometimes write for my work that is a federally funded nonprofit with a board of directors.
I am both mindful about the audience I am writing for and also resigned to speak my truth. My name is google-able and any one who wants to can find my different voices. I have kindof given up the struggle though. I would rather share myself than hide myself and for me that's I think what it comes down to.
That's just me though. I think I probably need to blog about this issue myself. Lol. Xo.
Well I appreciate reading your post and you make it look so effortless. I hope to learn from you not to be so guarded and censored. I am so glad to be here you to now if I can just find a darn internship I will be ok. Yes my room smells like Hawtman right now! I love Scentsy:)
ReplyDeleteHawtman is a great place to visit but I wouldn't want to live there! Nikkie the program is 10x better with you in it. Nobody is holding no power over you! Apparently they don't know what they are missing and you don't need to be dismissed. You will be very appreciated in your new mental health position and your job duties will be much more rewarding!!!!(sometimes bad things are good things in disguise)
ReplyDeleteHi Levi, yes at this point I have to choose to see at as a positive. I have until summer to find somewhere that will agree to let me use my place of work for my internship- I never thought it would be this complicated. What bothers me most is how some refuse to think out of the box. I do hope to move on and be appreciated elsewhere because I do one helluva job for them!! Thank You
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